E' utile ricordare un trauma infantile?Dipende, da caso a caso.Puo' essere devastante.
Da qualche giorno sono ricominciati i sogni e le visioni notturne.
Sogno ricorrente, il Demonio e' nella mia casa di famiglia e ci minaccia.Dobbiamo difenderci. Da giovane ho interpretato la nostra infelicita' come causata da qualche sorta di magia nera, oggi penso che quello sia un mio modo personale per indicare l'abuso.Quando una realta' e' troppo difficile da accettare preferiamo costruirci motivazioni meno dolorose.
Chi penso mi abbia molestato?Un familiare di mio padre o mio padre. Non mi e' chiaro chi tra questi. Cosa intendo per abuso? Che mi abbiano toccato nelle parti intime con intenzioni malate.
Che problemi mi hanno causato?La mancanza di affermare la mia volonta', ho subito la loro volonta' da bambina e da adulta non mi sento in diritto di dire no quando qualcuno avanza richieste che io non condivido.
Perche' mi hanno molestato?Hanno subito la stessa cosa, in qualche modo per loro era "normale".
Come mi sento oggi?
Nauseata.
Is it useful remembering a childhood trauma? Sometimes it is, sometimes not, in my opinion.It can be devastating.
Since few days dreams and visions started again.
It came back my recurring dream, the Devil is in my family home, we have to fight him.We are in a danger. Being young I have interpreted our unhappiness as caused by some kind of black magic. Today I think the Devil is my way to identify the abuse.When is too hard to accept that something happened we prefer to build a cause less terrible to accept as true.
Who do I think I was molested by?In my mind I feel two relatives of my father or my father. It is not clear who did it. What do I mean by abuse? I was touched in intimate parts with ill intentions.
Problems that they have caused? Failure to assert my will, they have violated my will as child and as an adult I do not feel right to say no when someone advance a requests that I do not agree with.
Cause I was molested? He/she has undergone the same treatment as child, in some way for them it was "normal".
How do I feel today? Nauseated.
Is it useful remembering a childhood trauma? Sometimes it is, sometimes not, in my opinion.It can be devastating.
Since few days dreams and visions started again.
It came back my recurring dream, the Devil is in my family home, we have to fight him.We are in a danger. Being young I have interpreted our unhappiness as caused by some kind of black magic. Today I think the Devil is my way to identify the abuse.When is too hard to accept that something happened we prefer to build a cause less terrible to accept as true.
Who do I think I was molested by?In my mind I feel two relatives of my father or my father. It is not clear who did it. What do I mean by abuse? I was touched in intimate parts with ill intentions.
Problems that they have caused? Failure to assert my will, they have violated my will as child and as an adult I do not feel right to say no when someone advance a requests that I do not agree with.
Cause I was molested? He/she has undergone the same treatment as child, in some way for them it was "normal".
How do I feel today? Nauseated.
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